Today was Chemo #5. Since I was unable to have chemo last week (because I didn’t recover from the 4th treatment), I had a revised version today. Though the original plan was that this was supposed to be the 5th of 6 treatments, I will have to go a little longer (maybe a lot longer – the extent is still TBD) because we are spreading out the medications in an effort to lessen the side effects.
Bad news: I will have to go past the April 12th finish line. Truth be told: it brought out the Chemo Sobby in me. I was holding on so dearly to the April 12th date. However, I kept (and continue) to tell myself that there is a reason that I have to go longer and that something will (damn it!) come from it.
Silver Lining News: I will hopefully be able to better tolerate the upcoming treatments.
Another Silver Lining from today is that I had my LAST DOSES of Adriamycin and Cytoxan – EVER (I hope). Adriamycin is commonly referred to as “The Red Devil” because of its bright red color. I’m really glad that this was my last dose of Adriamycin because it’s most toxic side effect is life-threatening heart damage. Phew.
On a side note, I forgot that the red color of Adriamycin – Ummm – passes through the kidneys and produces an unsettling color in the toilet after drinking a lot of water. Catch my drift?
This happened to startle me which then made my heart skip a beat which then made me think that I was having a cardiac reaction! No worries, though. It was just evidence that my kidneys are working just fine. Phew, again!
As you may remember, I go chemo to in an outfit that makes me feel good, happy and confident. I have always put forth an effort to look my best, no matter how I feel, and chemo infusions are no exception. So, the outfits that I wear to chemo are chosen with care and have special meaning to me.
Today, I started with my scarf. I chose one that belonged to my dear mother-in-law.(She died a few years ago and I miss her dearly, everyday.) It is a beautiful silk Hermes scarf with butterflies on it. She loved this scarf and I fondly remember her wearing it chicly on her head (a la Audrey Hepburn) when she and The HOTY drove in his convertible.
In addition to my scarf, my most precious accessory today was this stone heart given to me by a very dear and thoughtful friend. I rubbed it in my hands relishing all of the tremendous love and SL’s in my life. Such an incredibly and loving gift.
I also wore my favorite J.Crew city fit capri pants. It doesn’t get better than J.Crew, in my opinion. Love. Love. Love. They are a lavender-pinkish color and I happened to have some fun little kitten heels in the same color – with tassels. Can I just say how much I love tassels? I always have. I remember having my Bass Loafers in high school – with tassels.
And regarding the bag: well, you know how I feel about Hermes…and pink. :–)
The other SL of today is that my next article is on the Health Page of The Huffington Post:
If you read this Brookside Buzz post and then the Huffington Post article, you might be confused. To clarify, The Huffington Post is running all of my posts from the time of diagnosis to have the complete story. THANK YOU again (and again!) for reading. Your feedback, comments and energy mean the absolute world to me. You are my Silver Lining!
Every day may not be good, but there’s something good in every day.