Three years ago today, I was diagnosed with FBC (f-bomb breast cancer). Wow. I still can’t believe that I just wrote that. I mean, really. But I am reminded – every time I take a shower or change my clothes or wonder what why I have an ache or pain – that yes, indeed, I did have breast cancer.
I consider the day of my diagnosis to be my “Cancerversary.” Kind of a strange term, I know; however, having FBC in and of itself is awfully strange. And awful.
In the time leading up to my 1st Cancerversary, I decided that I wanted to find – yes, you guessed it – Silver Linings and wholly balance the negative associations of the day with the positive ones. I thought that there would be no better way to do so than to challenge myself – really challenge myself – physically and emotionally. So:
- On my 1st Cancerversary, I ran a 1/2 Marathon.
- On my 2nd Cancerversary, I hiked to the top of Inspiration Point in Santa Barbara.
- Today, on my 3rd Cancerversary, I am climbing the mountain again.
Recently someone said to me, “Isn’t it great that you are 1/2 way to being ‘cured’?” This goes in the What NOT to say to someone category. After all, I can name 5 people off the top of my head who were diagnosed with a recurrence 6+ years after their diagnosis. To quote one of my dear readers, this “makes me feel like I am on the edge of a precipice and could fall at any moment”
The thing of it is that my body has stupendously duped me once. I know that it can do it again. BUT, I am choosing to balance that possibility with a Silver Lining philosophy that tells me to live everyday to its fullest, to make healthy lifestyle choices (like eating well and exercising!), and to maintain a positive outlook on life full – always full! – of Silver Linings.
I sure do hope that you can learn these things WITHOUT a cancer diagnosis.