After having had f-bomb cancer, the thought of a potential of a recurrence is never far from my mind. A recurrence occurs when cancer comes back after treatment. It can come back in the same place as the original cancer or elsewhere in the body. While I don’t dwell on it (I really don’t!), I am acutely aware of its potential. After all, my body already duped me once. Who’s to say it won’t do it again?
Last week, I had several encounters with women who have had recurrences. GULP. One woman told me, “I was diagnosed with Stage 1 and after finishing the treatment was given a 96% chance of cure. Now, I am Stage 4. I got f-bombed.”
Here’s the thing: thinking about the potential of a recurrence often feels like a visit to Crazy Town. The more you think about it, the more crazy it can make you feel. The added pickle of the visit is that it is easy to get stuck in the muck of Crazy Town.
The truth is that a trip to Crazy Town is completely normal. Though it feels rotten, you are NOT crazy. In fact, a trip to Crazy Town is to be expected. It’s just part of the f-bomb cancer experience. HOWEVER, when you feel like entering Crazy Town, the key is to keep on moving. Drive through. DON’T STOP.
The ways that I cope with Crazy Town Mishegoss* include:
Have you ever been to Crazy Town? If so, how do you cope?
*Mishegoss is a Yiddish word for craziness.