Husband Post from Hospital

Woke up at 4:30am to be at the hospital by 5am. Sat in registration area for an hour and a half, went looking for coffee at 5, but cafeteria does not open until 6:30am. Annoying. Reality was very strong this morning for us both. That feeling you get when you wake up and there is the feeling of dread. Watched her get prepared for surgery, all I could do to keep from crying. Dr’s and nurses busy because the registration took so long and the surgery was scheduled for 7am. Dr’s write on her chest what they are supposed to do. A little Versed for her to make her relax. They don’t offer that to the husband, I’ll put that on my comment card along with the coffee dearth at 5am. It’s the worst feeling to see a loved one rolled away for surgery. I watched my sons each rolled off for various minor surgeries and the feeling is always horrible. Wonderful outpouring of calls, emails and texts wishing us both good wishes,luck and success. Expecting up to 7 hours of surgery, in the cafeteria with her best friend. Coffee, magazines, Ipad and fear.

More later. All prayers welcome.

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  1. says

    This post took my breath away. I had a lumpectomy and node removal done on Sept 11, 2012. I was so anxious as they rolled me away, but your perspective now makes me realize how hard it must have been for my husband to watch me go. I wonder what he did while I was gone. I will have to ask him. Thank you for opening my eyes. Cancer can make us selfish.

    • says

      Dear Anna,
      THANK YOU so much for your comment! I really appreciate it. Sending you all of my best wishes for your recovery. Please take good care and stay in touch.

  2. Ginni says

    YOU are on my mind and in my heart! My prayers are out there with so many others! We love you and give Hollye all our best! xoxoxox

  3. maili says

    i was up from 4:00 to 6:00 AM feeling sick to my stomach thinking of all of you and saying many many prayers. I was going to text then but didn't want to wake anyone up. So glad you have this blog so we can keep in touch.

    Was saying prayers again at 7:44 and a beautiful white bird came to the window and I took that as a positive sign all would be okay. I'm the "magical thinking" 42-year old that thinks like the five year old. But that bird did bring me a lot of comfort with all of you heavily on my mind!

    Will look forward to the next post! sending constant prayers and love.

  4. Sue Rooney says

    Jeff, I will be thinking of you both throughtout my day I could only imagine your pain and frustration but as Hollye always says their is a silver lining she is all so positive how great is that!!!! Love and Prayers, Sue Rooney