I Wanted a Perfect Ending Quote
Gosh, what a quote from Gilda Radner. I have read it and reread it and read it again. When I shared the quote with one of my friends, his immediate response was: “High Anxiety!” As in: Not Knowing = High Anxiety.
I used to feel the exact same way way. But then again, I used (pre-FBC) to be and feel a lot of things. After all, I liked to be in charge. I liked to plan things to the tee. Ha! The joke was certainly on me: the vegan-eating, marathon-running health nut who gets cancer!
Thanks to a health crisis of epic proportions, I too learned (the extra hard way, I might add) that some poems simply aren’t meant to rhyme…and that some stories do not have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Even after my diagnosis, I thought that one thing would stem from another in a logical fashion and that progress would happen linearly. I couldn’t have been more wrong.
I learned – probably from my bed or maybe even the bathroom floor – that life is indeed about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what’s going to happen next.
This lesson was one great big Silver Lining because now I no longer want a perfect ending, but rather enjoy life as it unfolds before my very eyes.