Change is at the forefront of my mind today.
This weekend, we had snow (flurries) in Santa Barbara. Today it was sunny and warm. Change.
Today I feel healthy. Tuesday (after round 4 of chemo), I will be sick (very sick). Change. Change.
Our daughter, a/k/a Finally Five, is changing (physically, emotionally, socially, spiritually and intellectually) daily, right before our eyes. Extraordinary. And magical. Change. Change. Change.
Change is inevitable in life. I cannot change the fact that I have cancer. However, I have the Silver Lining attitude that enables me to take control of the extraordinary changes resulting from the FBC diagnosis and corresponding treatment. In other words, I can dictate the impact of the change that is occurring.
A positive attitude, calm reasoned choices and a stellar support system are the foundation upon which the change in my life is happening, which makes the whole experience feasible.
Rather than be fearful, I feel brave. Rather than feeling ambivalent, I feel empowered to grow. Rather than feeling despair, I feel hopeful. Rather than focusing on what I don’t have, I focus on what I do have which includes:
- A phenomenal family, including a HOTY (a/k/a Husband of the Year)
- Fabulous friends
- An amazing health care team
- Extraordinary (!) people reading this blog, posting comments, sending encouraging words and/or sharing experiences
- Physical strength (for 6 days of the month, anyway)
- Emotional fortitude
- Mental stamina
- Ceaseless curiosity
- Patient patience
- Sense of humor
- Persistent peace
- Joy! Joy! Joy!
- SL’s, of course
As I begin to see the light on the other side of FBC (SL), I know that I can change is how I live the rest of my life — making healthy choices and feeling as well as possible, physically, emotionally, intellectually and spiritually.
Change has a considerable psychological impact on the human mind. To the fearful it is threatening because it means that things may get worse. To the hopeful it is encouraging because things may get better. To the confident it is inspiring because the challenge exists to make things better.
–King Whitney Jr.