Now that I am 8 days out from my first round of chemotherapy, I was really hoping that I would be feeling better. It’s been a bear of a week (as you may have endured with me).
One minute, I’ll start to feel better and then WHAM. Down the toilet (pun intended). Seemingly constant waves of nausea. Persistent headaches. Zero appetite. Incessant fatigue. Brain fog. Zippo motivation. Bathroom trips (that you’re all too familiar with). Mouth sores (more on that tomorrow). New drugs (Sansuco Patch, Neurontin). Old drugs (Ativan, Zofran).
All that said, I found myself stuck in a patch of couch glue from which I could not move. It’s a frustrating conundrum when my mind says “C’mon. Let’s get going!” and my body says, “Absolutely no F-bomb way.” The Husband keeps telling me that I have to “listen to my body”. My mind says, “WTF? I’M in charge.” Oh, it’s a nasty push-pull going on between my cuckoo mind and my dysfunctional body right now!
To deal with my couch glue situation, I decided to watch one of my favorite movies: The September Issue. This film is a documentary by R.J. Cutler about the making of the 5-lb, 2007 September Issue of Vogue, the largest in its history (clearly pre-financial collapse).
I have always been a big fan of Anna Wintour. She has deftly managed, since 1988, to be a visionary in and for the world of fashion. She is consistently described as being “tough”. Why? If she were a man, would she be described as “tough”? I wonder (& doubt it). She is the consummate professional who is soley focused on doing her job. And this she does brilliantly.
I also love her style. She is the epitome of chic and elegance.
So, watching The September Issue was definitely a SL (silver lining) to my day, easily distracting me from my nausea and headache. Andre Leon Talley (Editor at Large) is a gas – or maybe that’s me who’s gassy? Or Buzz? Perhaps hilarious is a better word.
Grace Coddington is brilliant. So adorable as “the only Editor who still dresses the models.” I sure would love to go to a photo shoot with her one day and watch her work her magic. See how happily distracted I became? It’s the little things, those little Silver Linings (SL’s) for which I am so grateful these days!